8/16 there truly is no way to actually convey anything. the only reality is coexperience. no more digital medium of conveyence anymore, i dont want to be dependent on a method that will never work. i want to coexperience again. i need people physically present to coexperience reality.
art will never fully work. we just have to experience it all together. someone...........
i would rather live in moments of loneliness and company than be lied to nonstop. a mocking replacement for connection. kept in a suspended culture of uncanny inhuman sludge. inauthentic connection to even less authentic people. I NEED TO BE HUMAN AGAIN
10/6/23 gen z is not going to save the world and it's not even going to come close, it's going to satirize and parody the concept of meaning out of existence, leaving itself with only consumerism -even attempts do do something serious will be a form of satirized and parodied consumerism suppocated under layers of irony- until some event or moment where material historical conditions become so horrific it would almost manually, physically, reset culture. No cultural action alone will fix this from within, or intentionally create a tangable physical change. Other than the direct actions of economic powers in society seeking to profit off of this consumerism by appealing to it, there will only ever be unintended consequences caused from within the cultural, culture will *lead* to historical conditions, but it will never again *create* historical conditions. In the coming world of post-meaning, the physical will always preceed the cultural. How long it will take is impossible to know exactly but (like so often in history) the world does seem only a short time away from collapse.
7/8 I no longer hope for a good world. I only wish the bad world would regain some sense of dignity and reality in its evil.
It literally doesn’t matter if you go back to better things in any way. You speak the same language but everything means something different now. It all means something worse. It’s impossible to say something good on the internet now.
You will never be able to say what you want to say again. The words don’t exist anymore. All meaning is stolen
Its not that the *old* meanings no longer exist. This is not an evolution of meaning. Not selection or elimination It is a total extinction.
#The reality nobody can believe in is not a reality at all#The end of meaning is the end of the world
8/13 the past century has pretty much just killed off anyone who effectively cares about anything strongly of any political side and left behind only the people who could adapt by not caring at all. The back to back two world wars and cold war. including proxy wars and civil rights movements and the years of lead just literally killed off everyone with ideas and left behind the people who dont really care about anything. this could be an aspect to the concept of "decedance."
decedance- not only being what follows the hard times of struggles creating the good times where people can afford to care less about society, but also that those who care one way or another are killed off or lose social favor and power in the views of increasingly decadant power of society and their lineage of philosophy is killed in the collective consciousness in the aftermath of continuously pacified conflict beginning from a point of primary and extreme conflict which people want to leave behind.
6/23
people kind of act like everything in the world was made up just to give them something to talk about online
6/7 in my 4/13 entry on the main writings page, i talked about how profound experiences aren't really real anymore, at least to the exent of them being flattened out and dragged down to being commodities, expiring and being thrown away. I recently went on a road trip with friends to some of the most beautiful nature i've ever seen. it was sublime if anything was. but I still know on a level, all the beauty i saw doesnt negate how i feel about the world ultimately. It was a brief escape to nature, to the "real world", if the real world is what you'd call something you can only experience for a special weekend. What I saw simply isnt part of any life that can be lived. all that nature can *only* be experienced as a detour to consume. It's not part of the way of life (not anymore at least). You can, through either sacrificing enough money or enough life, make that "real world" the world of your "lifestyle". If you're wealthy enough you can buy a lonely house in nature as a great luxury, or you can sacrifice life by making a "lifestyle" out of camping in an RV. But the point is that either way you can see it takes such an effort to convince youself that it's a lifestyle, such an exertion, so much resistance, it's so clearly against the way the world now works. The real world is starkly antithetical to how you are "supposed" to exist. To work a normal job, have a normal social life, start a family, anything a normal person should be expected to do, goes against this "real world" which used to be possible, this "lifestyle" that was normal. In order to feel that world, even if you have the means, you can't ever experience it as anything more than a commodity. The thing no amount of money can ever afford is to stop something from being a commodity. (you'll always need to buy things in any life, but only now do you need to "buy" a "lifestyle" itself) When that borrowed time and money runs out, you'll see in hindsight just how much of a commodity it was. The "real world" will fade, and it will expire as you return to the other "real world".
I'm seeing the news now about the fires that have been occuring. It's all taking me back to everything I felt before.
The fucking sky can actually turn dark orange red and smoke can burn you lungs for a week and it's all just subsumed into the cycle of trends. it just dematerialized into the algorithm. it's something to consume in the news. it's a fuel for memes. The actual fucking sky can turn dark for a week because of fire and instead of being a collective existential crisis it's just something to gawk at. It's something to forget about. The thought of that makes me hate people. it's the ultimate proof that there is nothing you can possibly do to get people to care anymore.
that I can't communicate something so blindingly simple and massive makes me feel completely alone in the world.
6/6 you have a word for everything. you think that having the word for it means you know it better. you just have a word for it. It lets you skip the process of understanding whenever you have to try describing something. you're so clever as to replace all the words in a book with the singular word of the genre. you are un-understanding things. you are un-learning and un-knowing
5/9out of everyone I see on the internet it seems like people will post on the internet for years without ever actually saying anything.
#And without ever really connecting with anyone or having a single meaningful experience
look at what the modern world has created. These things are slightly not human. There’s something missing now.
#"iPad babies’’ have been around far longer than the actual iPad. I think post-industrial society has been absent of real humans for a while
4/16 im getting really sick of everything being subversive. society is overdue for an age of originality and earnestness
3/19? I honestly believe internet humor at its current state can cause permanent brain damage.
Try to say something without trying to make it sound more like like a joke or ironic or sarcastic or like it’s lighthearted or copying how you expect to see something written online, dont let yourself sound like any of those things even a little bit just try to speak naturally and say something. can you do it? Does it take more effort than it should?
How are people gonna function long term while only able to communicate with internet-brain?
(addition 4/29) this basic concept applies to tons of other stuff too, it was just my main concern at the time. the mind numbing effects of corporate speak, (job interview personality, HR speak, email etiquette), or even the faux-therapy way of talking may be good examples outside of the internet. Theres def more i cant think of right now
5/25 real life contains more fictional stories than fictional stories do.
the real world creates fiction and turns itself into fiction but fiction tries to insist it is real within itself#we create fiction from real life #but as life becomes made of fiction and fiction replaces life where does our fiction come from?#what reality are we emulating within fiction if our reality is replaced with the consumption of fiction?#you dont stay inside all day to read books and watch movies and consume art about people who do nothing but stay inside to consume fiction.#at our stage of society fiction no longer repesents anything. it is purely nothing#how much of our reality is now dedicated to creating fiction?
this issue is financially encouraged as the industry of selling reality has overtaken reality
10/8 I hate how we are all strictly expected to live our lives not taking seriously most of what we know to be very real
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