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4/8/23

There’s a correlation between how quickly you find out someone’s sexual orientation and how annoying they are. This is true regardless of what the orientation actually is.

someone who feels the need to mention it outright, or mention who they're dating, someone who talks about exes, talks about crushes
including celebrities or fictional characters or anything. If some person is really obviously trying to make moves or flirt, if someone mentions being an incel,
if it comes up because of politics. Anything really unprompted or obvious is a sign/example of someone being annoying.

"even if you /want/ to date someone. It’s better not to know something like that right away. It’s gotta be something like, only finding out your friend who you’re already close to is a fag once you’re 2 hours into trying weed together, that information itself is intimate, it’s not at all the same as dating someone who immediately talks about who they will date."
>But that sort of applies to anything that just fundamentally defines who you are, right?
>yeah that's true
>If I know right away then you’re probably annoying. A certain amount of social anxiety is what preserves individuality and identity, if you’re not hiding your internal world then you don’t have an internal world. That’s what makes it actually special to get close to someone and get to glimpse into them. It only works if they’re too complicated and hidden for everyone to easily understand
>yeah
>they're not two dimensional
"Oh I know your deepest political and philosophical opinions right away? Wow you must be really interesting"

3/19/23 The social media model made widespread a new and deeply distorted form of connection only comparable to what celebrities and politicians have experienced. Obviously I don't think I need to state this, but there is something seriously psychologically wrong with celebrities and politicians. Anyone who remembers when the internet was in the middle of this swtich will remember how the change in the internet reflected a psychological change in people picking up this distortion like celebrities and politicians do, at first it was only the people who craved attention, but slowly the effect became more widespread and eventually inescapable. It's easy for people to claim the internet was always like this by pointing out the biggest trends and things which went viral, but those are actually not representative of what the old internet was like, they represented standing out from the internet, imagine if someone judged you and your current experience based off of the mainstream culture and what and the most viral trends are *right now*.

rather than a mix of experiences, the algorithmic means of showing content means isolation/insulation of cultural experience. Unless you willingly choose to constantly expose yourself to bad things on the internet, you will remain trapped with constantly ruined and worn out emotions or experiences. This is a widely shared gedankenwelt, something we may have formerly known as the "mainstream", the mainstream is notorious for ruining every experience, but now, with the help of algortihms, something similar to it has become the standard almost everywhere. Even as you find more and more niche experiences and subcultures, they are almost never free from the effects of what we may have once called "mainstream".

If you make something your whole personality that’s because it faced resistance or persecution. And what you’re actually doing is creating a mental prison by trapping yourself further within the space you’ve been condemned to and isolating yourself within your smaller range of personality and lived human experience.

#I haven’t read Foucault yet but isn’t this something he says? #It’s kind of sounds like a Nietzschean idea #but I don’t think Nietzsche ever said this specifically

your entire personality is being on the internet? Were you bullied out of real life for being autistic or something? Your entire personality is being gay? Your entire personality is being trans? You definitely wouldn’t have made that your whole personality if you felt safe and not persecuted or bullied and if It felt normal. Now look at you; you’re willingly trapped on the internet because you thought you were staying safe when in reality you’ve accepted a mental prison. Meanwhile the people who bully you are free to live normal lives. you sure you didn’t just create a mental prison for yourself? Your whole personality is being a woman? Why? Because you faced resistance while trying to work a mostly male job? Your whole personality is being black? Would that be the case if racism didn’t exist? You built two whole religions around being persecuted by massive empires in ancient history? Judaism and Christianity? You made Islam your whole personality after it came under attack by modern imperialism? Are you sure any of this is helpful?


ven diagram of “psychological/ sociological phenomena related to humor” and “psychological/sociological phenomena of the collective unconscious” with the middle being “memes” #PATTERN RECOGNITION#PATTERN SUBVERSION#A WAY OF THINKING WHICH CANNOT OCCUR WITHIN A SINGLE MIND BUT IS A FUNCTION OF SOCIAL THINKING#Maybe it’s obvious now. But humor is the new age of propaganda#Memes#Rather than concepts invoking language they can invoke memes- already formed ideas which can connect to eachother and spread easily.#Smaller cells which make up the larger organisms#This has been the case since around 2015